I've been feeling really under the gun lately—I've mentioned (I think) that I over-committed for Sept./Oct. I still have 2 books I told authors I'd read in October (and one other to write about). Plus a few new releases that I meant to read this fall that aren't so new anymore. I still have one book that I'm committed for this month, and a short one next month (maybe one more in there...I'll check my calendar later). Plus a handful of things that are on my "I will read this in 2019" list.
For some reason that I have trouble articulating (and I know that some of you get this, and many of you don't understand), between some of those goals and the 50 days remaining in 2019, I'm feeling a lot of pressure.
All self-imposed, I realize, but that doesn't change it.
So you know what I did this weekend? I took a look at a few of the things on my "Must Read in 2019" list and put them on the "Probably Get to in 2020" list. Including 5 library books—one habit I fell into (pre-blogging even) is that a library due date trumps just about anything else when it comes to reading. And I don't take things back to the Library until I've read them. These are on their way back, though. I would've taken care of them Saturday, but it was too late by the time I decided this.
Fewer books on the "Must Read" list equals fewer books on the "Must Write About" list. Which is good—because that list is still ridiculously long. But I'll do what I can, I'll be a little briefer about some things than I want to be (some things), and probably do a few more "Quick Takes" posts.
You know what? I felt so much freer just by giving myself that option. And yeah, I realize that I'm probably not still going to be able to finish everything on my "Must" lists this year, but it seems a little more attainable.
I'm not saying that feeling is going to last, or that I'm not going to find a new way to apply stupid pressure to myself. But for now...I'll take it.
Which tie in nicely to this post on their blog (also, one I didn't see until after I wrote this). Followers and ARCs aren't my hangups (well, occasionally that ARC thing, but I get over it pretty easily). It's the reading and writing pace (as people who've been here for a bit know all too well). "Just remember: THIS ISN'T YOUR JOB. You started a blog to share your enjoyment of books with others...Don't fret over what you can't do, but be excited about what you can." That's exactly what I was trying to tell myself. It was reassuring to see someone else say that about the same time. Thanks, David!